Sorta having the same conversation with someone on another board who feels the same as you it seems, so I've kinda cut & pasted some of what I said there to here. One thing I learned (which was paramount) while dealing with my cancer was never say never, always be positive and don't dwell on the possible bad outcomes. I was told I would never walk again after they removed four major tumors from my spine (they were growing on my nerves, literally), yet here I am today walking, even able to run to a degree - although I am still dealing with some after ten years I have yet to let it get me down. Just got to stay positive, plain & simple, as hard as or impossible as it may seem at times. Even a 1% chance is better then nothing. Well, I guess the official word is remission, but for the most part I beat it according to the doctors, since my cancer (spinal ependymoma) was benign, so in a sense I was quite lucky as cancer goes. The worst part was location and the effect it had. Growing inside my spine and on my nerves it was numbing my legs to the point I couldn't move or use them, causing extreme undescribable pain in my lower back & at times I would lose all control basically from the waist down, I'll spare some details, but I think you get it. I had two spinal surgeries to remove the most aggressive & trouble tumors, then I had about 6 month (5 days a week) radiation treatments, then a 4 month break and treatments two days a week for a few months. After that it was monthly check ups and eventually annuals, until they declared it finished. The Juravinski is a great place, the docotrs, nurses & volunteers are all amazing people who do great work - I'm thankful to them all.