Zero, I'm sorry your sad, and I really hope that the grass is greener on the other side for you. But, I have to say, you're one of the most vague people. I have no idea what you're sad about. It sounds like you've got some serious personal and family drama going on, and I hope that unravels itself in a positive way. But, if you're hung up over a rapper that died over a year ago and the holocaust, maybe you need to move on and refocus. But mainly, feel better...