Thank you all for kind words, this site and its inhabitants can say some awefully wonderful things.
You're all very kind.
Brad, ive read that piece of yers before, its lovely.
As for me, the only real thing ive thought of, like most of you alluded to already, is the music id want.
no doubt, Joy Division's "Atmosphere" would have to be played. Sorry in advance if anything (god forbid) ever happens to me, cuz its a sad song, and it might bumm you out if you come.
(despite how this may read, im really not suicidal, im just high, and morbidly thoughtful.)
Thanks again, Jambands, much love to you all.