sorry about your friend, mister s. 36 is so young. i hope you're doing okay. i have been to alotta funerals and i think it's pretty natural to think about what yours will be like. sometimes i wonder if i'll be young or old, and if there will be good music there. sometimes i want to pick out songs or something funny to happen b/c i don't want it to be too sad... but then i think 'eek!', and that somehow if i start planning my funeral it's going to come sooner. same thing with making a will or an epitaph. irrational but true!